Tuesday, March 21 (3:21)
John: But those who do what is true come to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that their deeds have been done in God.”
The verse is all about our practice and our prayer time with God. As you've heard me talk about before, showing up and spending that first part of the morning with God is like tithing for the day. Does it work? Yes. Do I do it every day? I try. Can I tell the difference in my day when I don't do it? Of course. Then why don't I do it every day? And there it is, the question I often ask myself.
You would think by this time, I would have it figured out enough to really be consistent, but alas, I am human, just like the rest of us. Granted, I'm not sitting around twiddling my thumbs, and my pups have gotten used to me sitting on my mat and meditating, but it takes a while for them to settle down and my mind to settle.
What often happens is the pups will want to go out sometime between 3:30 and 5:00 am, and to help me fall back asleep, I start with meditation, and sure enough, it puts me back to sleep when I'm only halfway through. The fact is, it's not focused meditation (which seems counterintuitive). Sitting my butt down on that bolster on my mat and breathing deeply changes everything from the inside out.
If I say to myself, I'll meditate later, on the way to Bozeman, or in the evening, something usually gets in the way, a phone call, or text message, or a dog's paw in my face wanting attention, and it doesn't get done. It sets the stage for the rest of the day, and guess what? The things I wanted to do during the day get side-tracked as well.
My God is patient and kind and knows that I'm doing my best. My God doesn't berate me when I haven't had a meditation. I believe She gently reminds me of how much less stressful my life is when I spend time in prayer. I also see this blogging as a form of prayer, and it doesn't go unnoticed by my God.
May we be brilliant lights in God's eyes today and shining examples of God's grace.